It's been a month and somehow it still doesn't feel real that you're gone. My heart genuinely aches knowing that the last conversation we had was truly our last.
Monday, October 03, 2016
Thursday, September 29, 2016
Just like that I have spent one year of my life living in the UK. The past year has brought along a rollercoaster range of ups and downs. There has been heartache, there has been pain, yet there has also been loads of laughs, good times and things to be grateful about. This year has moulded and shaped me into the person I am today and I am so thankful for all of the experiences - both the good and the bad. To all of the people who I have met here in Plymouth, thank you for accepting me as one of your own. It really is an amazing feeling to be able to call this city "home".
Friday, June 24, 2016
Sunday, June 19, 2016
This weekend I decided to finally take some much needed R&R time. I've been pushing myself for weeks in regards to going far beyond my capacity when it comes to social interaction. So I decided to lock my door and stay in bed for the majority of the past 48 hours. And no introvert-haven is complete without some new reading.
Thursday, June 02, 2016
I'm someone who constantly needs to feel as though I am moving forward. I need to know that I am not stuck in 'standstill' or 'doing nothing'. I need to know that I am doing something that is going to take me somewhere. I sit and come up with lists upon lists of things I need to do in order to achieve the goals I have for myself by the time I am thirty. I rarely stop. My brain is constantly on, trying to figure out how I can progress further.
This week - this stopped me:
"Maybe sometimes our life is meant to be more about someone else's progress than our own." - Steven Furtick
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
The last month or so has been a hard one for me. The swing of emotions and battles that has been going on inside my mind has felt never-ceasing. But through this fight, I've been learning tons. I've been growing, being shaped and moulded into both a person who I can look at in the mirror and be proud of as well as the person who I believe God is intending for me to become.
Sunday, May 08, 2016
"I'm not writing this to make you feel guilty. I'm not writing this to show you the damage which you have done. I'm not writing this for you. From a purely selfishly motivated place in my heart - I'm writing this simply to tell you that I forgive you, for all of it. In order to finally move on and have the life that I always dreamed of having, I need to leave you in my past.
You broke me in ways you couldn't even see. You spewed venom right at me, and consequently I've been doing everything in my power to not allow those words to stick and burn me. You disguised yourself as a protector and I trusted you as such. Regardless... I forgive you.
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
Tattoo number two is here, and it is in a far more visible place than the previous one is. Big love to Lu from Spike at the Art in Plymouth for making this piece as beautiful as it turned out. She did a fantastic job.
Wednesday, March 30, 2016
I am so proud to be able to announce the launch of my new website after so much waiting! www.viivinmedia.com
Head over there and show it some love if you want to keep up to speed with what is going in my photography world. The blog over there will focus much more on photo walks and trips around the globe, whereas this blog will continue to be much more content based, venting about deeper life subjects and general thoughts and contemplations.
Monday, March 07, 2016
Wednesday, March 02, 2016
I've been thinking a lot again this week about more of those deep life matters which everyone wants to run away from. Yup. That's me. If someone could shut my brain off for a moment so I can get to sleep, I'd appreciate it. Anyways, I've been thinking... And for some reason, I find it a good idea to post these thoughts onto the internet.
One of the biggest fears which I have is leaving this life behind and noticing that I was a nobody. That I was irrelevant. That people could read my autobiography and find me uninteresting. Just another person. I fight against this on a constant basis, even when it comes to conversations with some of my closest friends. I need to have deep, meaningful conversations and connections with people so that I don't go unnoticed. I need to feel like I'm making an impact, leaving some sort of mark saying "Viivi was here."
Last week I traveled to both Finland and Israel in the span of eight days. I then spent thirty-six hours traveling back to the UK due to an eleven hour layover in Ukraine and an overnight stay in Gatwick before catching my bus to Plymouth. But I figured I would share the images from those eight days here.
Monday, February 29, 2016
This month has been a little bit of a mixture of different kinds of music... So I've put together another playlist on YouTube for you all, click here to have a listen.
It includes artists such as: Lauv, Astronomyy, Oh Wonder, Garden City Movement and Dawn Golden.
Hope you enjoy :)
Thursday, February 25, 2016
I'm sometimes hesitant to make comments about my faith or what I believe on public platforms as it often draws people to make conclusions about me without feeling the need to ask me further questions. It also makes me feel incredibly vulnerable, naked even, as I feel like I'm opening a vault to something at the very core of who I am. It doesn't mean I don't take pride in my faith, I just hate having a label placed on me without people taking the time to actually hear my story...
Tuesday, February 09, 2016
Sunday, January 31, 2016
Monday, January 18, 2016
Not that this will come as a shock to anyone who knows me, but I've been contemplating life a lot recently... I've been thinking about where I have come from, where I am at currently in life and where I want to be in five, ten, twenty years time...
Tuesday, January 12, 2016
Monday, January 11, 2016
Today, I'm reminded of just how human I am. That may seem like a pretty obvious statement which I should be fully aware of, but in my case I don't mean it as a realisation that I am not an extraterrestrial being. What I mean by that sentence is that today I'm reminded how fragile I am, how easy it is for me to doubt myself, and how I (like everyone else) have issues which I cannot push under the rug and pretend that they don't exist.
Saturday, January 09, 2016
Tuesday, January 05, 2016
So this year I have decided to try my hand at something new - posting one cover weekly on YouTube. We will see how that goes. So here's the latest one, and if you would like to see some more, you can follow the link below it to my YouTube channel :)
Saturday, January 02, 2016
So I'm not really one to make New Years resolutions... But this time of year does often cause me to think back on the previous year and jot down some reflections on it, so I figured I would share them this time on this little back-corner of the internet...